December 21,2004

 Mood: Dizzy (is that a mood?)

 Song: Titanic (revived, punk version)

My Boo,

4 days until Christmas! Yesterday went shopping, I got new pair of super fabulous shades from MALDITA its pinky violet color. And a really pretty skirt from Y.R.Y.S. its has a black like raffle-ish that's for the first layer inside is a pink raffle-ish it's kinda puffy but not too puffy. My ass is emphasized bwahaha!!! And a really cool, fitting pink top from ART WORK really nice designs. We ate at a very fancy restaurant. Got new pair of jeans from Hong Kong, their fitting hipsters and once again my butt is emphasized wuhu!!! And nice skirt but it doesn't look good on me from FOLDED AND HUNG. New bras. Have I told you my God parent, Annalie gave me a present (of course can't open em until Christmas) and BIG money. YAY! Am listening to Jun2 burned cd for me, it's HAPPY TOGETHER punk version really rockingly amazing! And SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW again punk version is also good. Anyway I have realized that Francis and I won't see each other until Christmas that is like forever!!! And I have realized our 2nd monthsary is near. It's on NEW YEAR'S DAY! Gosh! I have found a perfect gift though it cost a lot. Maybe I will look for alternative gifts. I so so so miss him. AAAAAAAAAhhhhh.... I thought I have told you about the seniors courting me? They call often, specially this Reynold, JV and Barba. And Jeff txt constantly! But I think this Barba guy is the one who really likes me because I have heard them way way before teasing him when I pass, or calling his name and joking me. Anyway I don't ignore them, I just play along. I know they have many girls, but they are seniors? They are like popular guys in school! And it's not even one, the popular group are courting me! They are such flirt guys, and that sucks. They kept on calling in my room phone, and JV's brother once called and I was like who's this? This Reynold is asking me where I live and he wanted to come visit and give stuff and I'm like “Too many guys are visiting my house you can't squeeze in!” And this JV was like “Dump your guy, or we can be together and you and him can be together I am not the jealous type.” And all those stupid lines. Boys, boys, boys... I have lots of them haha! I think I have breast cancer... My breasts are aching like hell. I think there are lumps in it, its really hurts so much... I don't want to die just yet... when i wake up in the morning and I stretch its like its being ripped off. God knows how painful it is. I can't tell to anyone just yet too scared to consult a doctor and he'll find out I'm positive with having a breast cancer. Do 15 year old girls suffer breast cancer already??? I'm just so scared right now, and imagine how expensive all those diagnosis and therapies. And to think i am still afraid of injections!!!! God this isn't happening. Sometimes its really hard to breathe, and today I felt so so dizzy all day. I even got up bed at 12PM and was really dizzy all day. Too moody, tired to do almost everything! I think I got this from wired bras I often wear. I can't wear bras that doesn't have wires and padding because my breast is really small... And I must have gotten this from too much bumping from my baby sister! And edges... God God God. Hugs&Kisses*nadz