November 9,2004 Mood: Loved

Song: Eyes on me (Final Fantasy VII)

Baby,

Today bad trip from Bhelle because she was always blaming me and telling me stuff like “Oh at least I have one word.” And was trying to ruin my day for saying things like “You're the one who gave the idea of going to Enchanted Kingdom and now you're the one who isn't going.” Well what can I do my mother wouldn't let me go there in the first place, and second My Boo is coming so I guess I'll go to, and third my best fried Jan2 is going so what can I do. I don't need them, bullying me and just being out of place at times. Besides maybe my ex boyfriend will come, oh I'd hate to be with him! And I wouldn't like Francis seeing me shouting my lungs out form scary rides and breath stopping rides! Maybe he won't be able to come with me at all, I won't have much fun with that... So I guess I'll go besides who knows, maybe will have lots of fun! I guess...

Today I'm still uneasy around him, oh I hate myself. And I cried because I am really getting jealous with Tracie and him being close to each other, and really comfortable with each other. And Tracie is really close with his mom, like their best friends and stuff while me I think she disapproves being Francis' girlfriend...

But Francis held my hands longer and often hehe. And I gave him this poem I made... it's really cute and a bit cheesy. I sit beside him so maybe I'll be comfortable with him again in no time. I hope. Oh yeah we walked home, I was like a kid going straight whenever we need o go to left. Hate hate hate me, my mind stops thinking about things to tell him whenever we are together. So often times I would be quiet and won't talk. It's like I'm not making moments with him memorable or even fun, boo. Oh God help me be comfortable around him, I use to like being with him you know fooling around. OH!!! I guess that's all for now. And yeah June lend me his Final Fantasy VII with all the nice songs and soundtrack and movie... OOOH! Hugs&Kisses*Nadz