September 10,2004

Ginger,

My first ever kiss. Today I had my first kiss, but I didn't move. It was a game of SHOT or DARE, since I never drink and never will I have no choice but to pick DARE all the time. So it was to kiss RJ, but I don't want to do the first move. So he kissed me instead of I kiss him. It's not really a real kiss, it just like his lips pressed to mine. It was soft and gentle, he kissed me twice. And the second time was better. Sometimes when the bottle is pointed at me, he would just sacrifice to drink. I was so scared at first, because I don't know how! They were getting mad because I joined and was not ready for the dares. Good thing he did the first move, I closed my eyes. He said I was his first kiss too, but I don't know. I like him a lot specially now I know almost, everything. Last night I went home at quarter to 9. Just hanging around with Jammie, Christian and Francis. We would talk, play in the street, tease and I had so much fun. But I asked Francis why he cried when RJ was telling him his life. I didn't cry when he told me, he said RJ's father was really mean to him. Sometimes only because of little things his father would ask him to hit his head on the wall, or he'll suddenly hit RJ with what he pick at the moment, he would punch and hurt him for small reasons. One time he asked RJ to undress and run in the street, he was about to run if his sister didn't beg to his father. I felt so pity and I want to hug RJ at that moment, only he wasn't there. So when it's getting a little late I asked Christian if I can come with him in their basketball practice, so we went to Club house together. We were having loads of fun fooling around, and when we were almost there someone was running. We thought it was Jammie, but it was RJ. I could almost hug him. He was so sweaty, and his stomach aches from running after he just ate. He was panting and catching for breath. When we were there my classmates gather around us and teased. Jammie txt RJ to go tell me go back there because it was important. My mother is there looking for me. I was so in panic. I asked him to call me and they said it's true. And then they called again to tell me it was only a joke. I was so mad and happy at the same time. I kept saying bad words to Jammie while laughing and half crying. We went back to Francis and Rj taught him some guitar chords. I was just relaxing with the music, one of the reasons why I fell in love with him. He's so good in playing the guitar. But he said his really a drummer and that only last year did he learned to play the guitar. Oh yeah for the past few days his so sweet! He always hold my hand and smoothes my hair. But I don't like him smoothing my hair because I have lice! EWW! But I like him touching my face and kissing my hand.

Anyway welcome to today, so in the game we were sitting next to each other so near. His lips pressed to my arms and my hands wrapped to his head and touching his ear. His hand was holding my other hand. After the game we were standing and decided not to join anymore because it was french kissing. Eww! I saw Alex and Francis doing it, YUCK! After that I went to Rj's house for the second time, we talked. Then I decided to go back to Jammie's house to ask her to come with me in my house and ask permission to my mother if i can still watch the game. I was permitted and we ate dinner, Jammie saw how I eat. And believed me that I am not thin because I eat so little. Anyway when we got back to the clubhouse I fool around with Tom and Lavanilyn and some other classmates and went to Rj's going there we saw Jevvy so she accompanied us. When we got there Jammie ran and said TOM IS HERE, they ran and I was left behind. But I catched up, they ran and ran and we hid in this very dark place. We waited for a while and was found. RJ and I were together, Jevvy and Tom and Jammie and Christian. We went to the clubhouse and sat on the see saw, there were 3 sets. RJ and I were partners, and we had fun fooling around. We took Jevvy to her house, and parted ways. Jammie, RJ and I were still together. On the way there were 3 drank guys playing trick on us. They were scaring us and I was so scared because I had encountered that kind of guys before. I was really in panic. And we saw Martin playing basketball I immediately went to the court and Martin accompanied us on way the 3 guys said SORRY they scared us. RJ was taking advantage he wrapped his arms around my neck! Haha. He said I was so scared. I went home and slept.

About my grades, ENGLISH top 4. MATH low. Speech TOP 2. Filipino and MAPEH low. TLE Top 4, History Top 4. Geography TOP 3. So all in all, I need to improve. Tomorrow Jammie and I are going to watch the REAL match, I'm gonna wear my rainbow colored blouse and bag! YAY!**xoxo**nadz