Yes, I am turning into a lovesick highschool girl. I am turning this blog into a highschool journal bleeding with mushy mushy thoughts. What the hell!

Thank you:

1. For making me happy, without you knowing it. There is something fascinating about being happy because of someone while that someone has no idea who you are. How tragically romantic ey?

2. For making me forget this person who has humiliated me, stabbed me, lied to me, cheated, made me experience something that I would never imagine I would experience, for making me feel so small and ignorant and dumb and worthless, for treating me as if I'm an object. For making me look like a fool to my friends, to his friends, to my family even, and to myself. I thought I have no more love left inside me.

3. For loving someone else for six fucking years and thus inspiring many people, including me. Unrequited love suffered for years or requited love but the relationship was a big mistake, a total lie, a cheat? I don't know who's worse. But at least, in your suffering I found comfort.

4. For being passionate with your work, with life.

5. For your advocacies.

6. For your blog entries.

7. For reading that poem.

8. For giving me butterflies in my stomach.

9. For that sweet name that I cannot stop mentioning.

10. For existing.