December 16,2004 Mood: Confused and Happy

Song: I don't wanna be your friend

Well I'm confused with Francis right now, he's been acting pretty upset and lonely for the past 3 days. And I don't like it... I miss his sweet caress his sweet hugs and flirtations... Why is he acting this way? He said he has a problem, in their home whatever I want to know it but I whenever I ask him what his problem was there's always something or someone interrupting. I love him so much and I don't like this thing happening to our relationship... I want our happy and fun relationship I want it so badly. Now that I am carrying so much problems... I need them. I want to confront him that I miss those sweet gestures but I just can't. Were not like getting uncomfy with each other again its like there's those dead moments. When neither of us dares talk or be sweet. I love him so much.

I'm happy for my grades, we got our report cards and I'm still one of the top natchers. And my BARKADA that's my group of friends name t-flip which has lots of meanings, is just getting stronger and stronger everyday. I'm loving and understanding each member of it. Were all 12 girls... And I'm super happy with them, they there to help me make me laugh. I make them laugh most of the time but acting like a fool or crazy. Being hyper!!! YEA!!! But out favorite thing to do is sing, we sing a lot!!! We have so much songs in our minds that we memorized by heart. And we love writing to our TFLIP official notebook where we write messages whenever we want to, where we write our griefs and problems with each other or family or issues. I love T FLIP.

As for my mother and I we're beginning a new relationship. Not to close but not far. Just right and I like it... Hugs&Kisses*nadz

ps... tnx to all of u guys, who cared and adviced and juts commented tnx a bunch u dont know how much i appreciated it and really made my heart