Geez Banana, shut your freakin' gob

LJ,
I just can't enough of writing! I want to discuss cause and effect of... well... Infatuation. Or also known as CRUSH!!! The word itself already makes you feel “KILIG” right? Be honest! Right? So I had my first every crush that until now I know his face and his voice, but I won't know the new and improved teenage him when I see him or he visits me one day. I wouldn't know if his Alvin. Whoah! Who would? He was my crush way back in Preparatory! I have pictures of him, we were close friends... Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! But I don't remember much of him now, the only thing I can still recall was that he's so into Comic books! Even though he's really young he has tons of em. And when visit their house, all we do is browse his comic books or play his toys. But anyway I don't know where he is right now, but if he's into chatting or surfing the net... NADS TO!!! HOLY CHILD CLASSMATE MO KO!!! Haha. Anyway my next crush I don't know... Gr1 and Gr2 my boy classmates are really annoying and well... unattractive! Wahehehe! But when I was in Gr3, I won't mention his name, I didn't know why I liked him. His kind of cute, and good in math, and kind of gentle man. But I had a huge crush on this guy from Gr.4 to Gr.6. On my 1st 2nd year High school whenever I see him his still giving me KILIG feelings. I don't know if it's love or infatuation. That long? For almost like 4 years? Anyway he isn't good in any subject, his not a gentle man, his shy type, his cute and funny, and his a good dancer. We were love team for like 2 years. And I think he liked me back for some time but maybe just developed from me liking him. What can I remember about him? We were teased almost everyday by our classmates and teachers, but suddenly we started ignoring each other. Don't know why... Anyway on my 1st and 2nd years in high school I don't have a real crush. They are all... um... “forced” crush. Just to have a crush like everybody else. But they are all, UGH! I became so close to this gay, he became my best friend. Until now we're kind of still sticking to the relationship or kind of friendship we built for 2 years. We were really attached to each other, and in our sophomore years sometimes the only reason why we go to school is to hang around with each other. We hated going to school and calls it “HELL.” We have so many things in common, music, points of view, we always plan things or talk about what we would like to accomplish in the future, we usually sing together, we joked and we always fool around. We do stuff together, do almost everything together. He even stayed up in my room until 12 AM once because we were finishing some projects. But of course we fight sometimes, we lost tempers to each other because of too much fooling around. We experience so many things that normal best friends don't. His not the type of gay that is such a flirt, he has a boy crush and a girl but he isn't a SILAHIS, he's a gay. No one wouldn't have fun hanging around with him, I can say that I'm lucky we became close. Maybe I'll write a new document all about him, anyway why I discussed this it's because I had a crush on him. Haha. Funny it may seem, but too attached and too many things had happened to him and me. Ups and downs, usually downs. I didn't know if I had a crush on him or whatever you call that thing-- likin' a gay? He is kind of cute, some would say. But his face wasn't the reason, the bonding. His also organized and kind of neat. And of course funny, that's a big PLUS for me. A big TURN ON. If the guy is funny and of course cute. Classmates often say we click so much that we should be Boyfriend and Girlfriend. That we so have many things in common that we could be more than friends. They ask if I ever had a crush on him, I say no. Hello? And he too. They asked if ever he would court me or he'd change and just became a guy would I like him? Dunno. We are talking about Infatuation, and according to this girl that sent 5 differences between love and infatuation:
1.Love develops slowly while infatuation develops rapidly. That is so true! Specially when you discovered that a cute guy is crushing on you, you suddenly feels likes HEY I LIKE HIM TO! Though you didn't really know, you just felt like I LIKE HIM SUDDENLY. I experienced that, from this one of our heart throbs in school. He liked me and told a friend of his and mine and I discovered. And then from that minute I realized his signs and suddenly liked him! While another guy2 whom I was eyeing before I liked guy1 I was liking him little by little because I was getting to know him little by little.
2.Love centers on just one person while infatuation may involve several persons. YEAH! I liked guy1 and at same time I liked guy3 and guy4 but I have a special feeling for guy2.
3.Love motivates positive behavior while infatuation can have a destructive effect. Really true. When I suddenly discovered guy1 liked me, I suddenly went nuts about him. I was crazy for him. I can't eat because I was too KILIG so I loose appetite. I can't sleep because I was too excited to go to school again to see him and be with him. I can't concentrate on studying because he was txting me and I was like ALL ATTENTION on him. Really!!! While the feeling I get from guy2 was comfortable.
4.Love produces security while infatuation produces insecurity. So correct!!! Let's based this on my gay best friend. I feel like I'm protected by him whenever I'm with him, I feel ok, great and safe. While when my crush talks to me I feel like DO I LOOK OK?
5.Love recognizes realities while infatuation ignores them. Uh huh!!! I am aware that he would do and would not do this, I'm talking about guy2. Because of family or classmate and our situation. Reality check. While my guy1 crush I always imagine things he'll do for me the next day... INITIALS OF GUY1 T.A.I. GUY2 J.M.S.