September 28,2004

Ginger,

Whew! 5 days to go and Rickson John and I are on our 1st monthsary. How slow... Anyway Saturday I wore Avril Lavigne punk style in our practice. Monday, morning was ok. But then I got pissed off from too much “Francis-courting-me” issue. John Mark, Tom and RJ keep on teasing me! I pretended to be real mad so they'll stop and RJ took it seriously and was ignoring me again. ARG how tiring his relationship is I'll sometimes think. And then yesterday also was our play and guess who the lead actors are. RJ and I, it's a story about 2 lovers being separated and then after a year of being separated was brought back by destiny. Ack, how cheesy. We were separated because RJ went to America to forget and leave me, because I was always giving him problems and I don't have time for him. I was working too much, until we fought and Francis taking the chance that we are about to break up he helped me with my work and ask me for dinner. He held my hand and comforted me and told me to pretend he was RJ so I leaned my head on his shoulder and then RJ sees us in the restaurant. So he made his decision that he will go to America and after a year we bumped to each other. Blah, I made the script! Ewww! After that I went to the washing room and when I got out of the cr he was there waiting. He asked if I was still mad, and you know said sorry and everything. We were ok again, and hang around with each other after dismissal. And then while him and I were ignoring each other. I was writing to John Mark about crush and love and stuff. He was writing to Bhelle. And then Bhelle let me read the notebook where they had a conversation, like chat only they were writing to each other. There I read many secretes. But I'll just mention them to you some other time, the thing I will tell for now is the most secrete one. He thought he wants to go back to her ex girlfriend who was asking him back, because he thinks we were already breaking up. He has 3 ex who wants to be his girl friend again. I got mad and started txting him harsh comments on his cellphone. The next morning he was ignoring me again, and I was like following him around. And then after a while I got out of the room, too much of this I thought. I cried and cried and Tracie saw me, next thing I know RJ was standing in front of me saying sorry and explaining. And then I was like I'm ok! And I went to the comfort room, he followed there I cried full force haha. I know he was crying too, we were ignoring each other. And this is the worst, I called Bhelle so I can talk to her. He called RJ so we can talk this out, but we didn't we just cried and cried! And then they left us alone, and after a while he left me and stood up. We were ignoring each other! Chemistry time Madame Cynthia didn't show up. So we had time to relax and fix our selves. I can't take it anymore and called John Mark (Oh yeah John Mark and I were really close!!!) ask him what he was talking about. Because he was talking to RJ. And so he called RJ, and for a while we just stood there. And then I finally broke the silence and asked What do you want? He said, What do you want to break up or what?! No, I don't want to break up with you I said. After a while he said I won't do that, I won't go back to them. I know I answered, and then after several minutes of silence and few words. We were ok again, he trapped me in his shoulders. We were sweet again, our faces were close to each others. I was ok and started smiling again, next thing I know we were fooling around! He walked me to the waiting shed as usual, after lunch he cams to school with Tracie and when they got to the room she called and asked if we already broke up. He said yes so I ride along, he said his going to ask if we can be on again. I said yes, he hugged me and put his cheeks next to mine. He hugged me really closely and tightly. Angelo appeared in the door with angry eyes, I knew he was jealous... Poor guy. If only I have 10 hearts, I can all give them a chance! But anyway we were sweeter than every and back together... sigh. Love is just a circle.**xoxo**nadz