December 29,2004

Mood: Grumpy

Song: Everywhere

My Boo,

Have my period, loads of project that I haven't started, Aunt Marlene leaving today, no txt from Francis until now... Gosh with music I'm really feeling the pain of missing Francis... Why can't he just txt? So I'll know he's ok? Or what is happening! But oh well nothing won't happen if I go nuts missing him he won't be back sooner. I have decided that this diary is full of Francis, Jun2, material stuff. No entries about my cousins, my sisters, my aunts and my mother. Isn't that stupid? Well let's start from uhhh, my mother? Well yesterday we went to the bank, drug store, grocery store and book store together. Bought some medicines for Jea *5 year old sister* and Aunt Marlene, some food, new tooth brush, glue gun, some scrap book materials. Can I say I had fun? Nope, I got noting more to say about my mother. We've been making each others temper boil, we get to each other's nerves most of the time. I don't know what happen but this year she definitely changed, and me too. SO I guess that's what happened, before we are super close and super like best friends suddenly everything changed and I don't get it she's the mother she should understand and be open minded with this teen stage im going but no! Whatever I don't want her to appear bad here, I love her that's all. My adopted sister as well we get to each other's nerves most of the time, but this Christmas break we haven't so far. That's not new since we were like 8 years old we have been mortal enemies... and I guess that's how it is that won't change. She's such a black sheep! She steals my stuff, and big money from grandma and moms, my money too! She just do nasty things! And I hate that, if only she wasn't adopted on the first place *oh I'm so evil!* Ok ok there are times when we click, but that like once a month! And yeah she gave me these heart necklace super cute *ok ok she didn't give it I stole it and she saw it and I was like burrow ok? And never returned it* Haha. My sister Judy is my best friend around here she's 12 years old now and we're wha real SISTERS are. Yeah we argue but thats rare, most of the time we just laugh and laugh. We do stuff together. We're super best friends and that's all. My 5 year old sister Jea well we go together at times, most of the times she hates me and I hates her. She loves my adopted sister so much! And mee her real sister, she hates... I can't forget the time when my adopted sister was being beaten and scolded by my mother she's crying a little and Jea was like stop it mom! And super crying! And when mom was went upstairs she stayed with my sister for hours comforting her! And when it happened to me I was beaten and scolded Jea was like STOP CRYING! It's your fault, see mom's mad?! Stop crying, your so bad.

So far 50% of my family has hatred in their heart for me... Only one doesn't. Even my granny has! I never helped in cooking, she always cooks and I never helped. Always in my room doing stuff while their busy in the kitchen or doing family stuff. So see? I'm not a loner, I'm just a person who likes doing stuff in her room with the door locked and music loud!Hugs&Kisses