October 09,2004

Ginger,

Here I am sitting and reminiscing all the moments with RJ and way back then when we weren't close to each other. I'm playing Officially Missing You. And I remembered one time when I am still crushing on Christian and Tom and I were sitting in the see saw and RJ went near us. Tom told me something, but he didn't finish it. RJ turned back his head and moaned something to Tom Ace. I think he was trying to say RJ has crush on me. And another time when RJ sat next to me, he was teasing me and stuff and he touched my face and I was pushing his face too. It's like were close but that's the first time we ever talked to each other. Missing You is being played, it's been too long and I'm lost without you what am I gonna do? I'm having flash backs when I'll catch him staring at me like his in-love with me or something. And he too sometimes catch me staring at him while some of our classmates are singing or a song is being played. And I remembered the times when he'll play the guitar and I'll sing, we often do that before when we're still having slight crush on each other. We enjoy hanging around each other, and often times I tease her to Jammie. Jammie was her crush before, him and Robin has a huge crush on Jammie. And then both of them had crush on me. But he mentioned before that I was their very first crush, and that he was suppose to court me way back before. But I seem so in love with Tom Ace, and they thought that Francis was going to court me. Playing Heaven one of my favorite songs... Francis had a huge crush on me before, maybe until now he has a slight feeling for me. Haha, I remember Robin would tease me to John Mark and ask if John Mark can court me and he would say Nadz is so beautiful right? And he would ask many stuff, I was reminded of the day when he was playing a joke on me and suddenly he asked if he can court me. Him and Angelo (another guy who has crush on me) were asking me tricky and silly questions suddenly they were teasing each other on me. Robin asked Nadz can Angelo court you? Angelo would ask Nadz can Robin court you? Robin would ask Nadz can Bat man court you and corny stuff. Then he asked Nadz can Robin court you? Robin who? I asked, he said Robin hood. Angelo teased him, when Angelo left he asked again Nadz can Robin court you? Robin who? I replied, Robin Robles he answered. I just laughed. And left, he called me again and would ask and I would answer and react the same way. I remembered I was forced to say yes you can court me because I really need to go out and he was trapping the door. He courted me for like 2 or 3 days. I liked the part when he was courting me, Rj was being our bridge. That time I fell for RJ. I really don't have feelings for Robin, Rj would play the guitar for the 2 of us and I would sing. And we would talk privately he would tell stories about their group, about Robin and him. And the last time he bridge Robin and I he fell for me too. I know I have written that but I would like to repeat that. I was sitting in the pile of books with my walkman, our class were playing music and were relaxing with it. He came near me and sat next to me, he stared at me smiling. I asked if he would like to share with my earphones... He shook his head, we talked about many stuff. And we laughed and everything, I even almost slipped spilling that I had a crush on him. Good thing the music was sorta loud and I said it softly, I said... RJ IKAW NALANG WAG NA SI ROBIN. (why can't it be you not robin?) He said HA? ANO? (huh? What?) I kept quiet, i was leaning my head to his shoulder. He repeat what is it? I shook my head, Tom would join sometimes and tease me he even asked if he can dance with me. I shook my head. Robin with some other friends went near us and teased me to Robin RJ left. I left too, when I came back Jevvy was leaning her head to RJ's shoulder. I left again when I came back he was half lying on the table, next to his table was John Mark who was calling Jammie. To my surprise RJ called me too, they kept on calling us. I asked why he was calling me, he said sit next to me. So I did, he pulled my head to lean to his chest and he smoothed my hair... I knew that he had feelings for me too... I'd Rather be is being played right now. What else, the next day we were ignoring each other and that afternoon he ask if he court me. Haha! **xoxo**nadz