December 19,2004

Mood: Unhappy

Song: Carry this picture

My Boo,

Yesterday I waited for him to visit because he said he's coming over that morning, he came in the afternoon, with Kerly. We weren't talking much, I was starting to feel our relationship is going no where but breaking. I was sleeping and was woken by Jea shouting he was downstairs. I thought they were waiting for me for a long while, so I got up and went out just to find out they were just waiting for Paolo for his scooter! I was super getting sick of our relationship I was waiting for his sweet caresses but no he was like I don't know!!! This is plain dumb. Jun2 came and Francis and Kerly burrowed his motorbike to go look for Paolo. I was feeling so terrible that time, I feel like he's getting sick of me and of course I hate that because I love him so much... That night we went for a SIMBANG GABI with Tracie, Malou, Jevvy, Alex and his brother Franko. Jun2 came, RJ was there too *but of course not with us.* After the mass Jun2 and I went to Tracie's place because her parents are away, and while walking to her way we were singing “Welcome to My Life” really loudly with people throwing us nasty looks and being really noisy we were having fun we don't care whatever they think. Guess what best friend Jun2 gave me? A burned CD with 21 songs all really awesome and there were the songs we sing together no the phone! YAY! His such a sweet guy, after we rocked Tracie's house and I even broke the little cute glass of candle from Malou, Jun2 and I ran to go ride tricycle. But there wasn't any. So we decided to use his motor bike. He just gave me a ride home, the gate was locked so I jumped in. We decided to meet up at 3AM for the next early SIMBANG GABI. Francis had the idea. So I slept at 11AM and woke up at 2 30AM. And saw my phone with 2 messages ang 3 miss calls. He went to my house at 2AM and I was still asleep... damn! I miss him, I was looking forward to being sweet with him while waiting for the 4AM mass damn! So i txt and txt and called and called no replies at all! FUCK! So I figured out since Jun2 said he wasn't going to sleep I should just call him to tell him to go fetch me and we'll go look for Francis. He came and I jumped in the gate again and we rode his motorbike. It was really cold. We searched for Francis but we can't find him. WE kept coming back to his house and calling and calling him. I was so feeling happy and safe with my best friend doing all these for me... And so we searched and searched for more, and guess what I saw a really creepy shadow, like a figure of a man that was ready to attack and jumped in front of our way. I sort of saw a black creepy shadow and felt the presence so I like moved closer to Jun2 who was driving and like hugged him really tight without saying why I was doing it. He suddenly said, “what the heck was that?!” I was like yeah I saw that too that's why I hugged you! And he's like you did? Oh gosh, we were just talking about how we would be interested on seeing one and stuff. After the search we walked to go to church and we saw Martin and he walked with us. He was really sweet with me and he told us not to go to church anymore... And so we walked again to look for a place to hang out. We were fooling around on the road acting like fools. I had fun, we sat on this stairs and talked. Martin was looking at my phone, *I brought mom's and mine* I was really sleepy and slept on Jun2's back and he was sleeping too. My hand was touching his face because I was like leaning to his back and he was like leaning down too, his face is really smooth and soft. And he was moving his head *I think he was flirting* and I felt his ears gently rubbing in my hands it was soft and cold. And he was like holding my hands once in a while. Jun2 is a really good looking guy! Anyway Martin played some songs with Jun2's guitar. After that I wanted to go home so we rode his motor bike again and Martin wanted to stroll some more so we went back to our house and left the guitar and we went outside our village, *my first time! To ride a motorbike with guys my age driving and I'm the only girl and they don't have license. No permission from our parents!* And then we went to this Villa Caseres it was super super cold! And these insects smashing our faces! And we stroll and stroll until we reached San Lorenzo and the sun came up we head back home at like 6 30 AM! I was like out for more than 3 hours away from home without mom knowing it! And at a very unsafe hours and motor bike. Haha! I love it! When I got home I slept in our sofa and woke up with Francis' sorry messages! Haha. Well I got to go! We need to fetch my Aunt in Airport from Hong Kong. And later my grandpa and his brother living in America will come visit! YAY!Hugs&Kisses*nadz